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PURPOSE OF OLD-AGE

As I watched my grandma lying on the bed, I could not help but imagining myself in her position. She wasn’t exactly helpless; in fact, I thought she was really strong for a 90+ year old. She did not step into the hospital even though she had a stroke! Her self-recovery is way too speedy, I think. Acupuncture really works, perhaps.

I wonder about what’s going on her head everyday. What does she live for? Would she prefer living or dying? I’m sure she’s tired of living and of not having the luxury to move about freely, to see clearly and to hear. At that age, with that kind of circumstances, what do you live for anymore? Isn’t life going to be depressing at that age?

As I was in my head, I heard a question, coming from within myself. Perhaps, if I can answer what I want to be and what I want to do when I’m at that age that would probably solve my ultimate life question; what is my purpose in life?

It is very simple, really. I want to be writing a book – if I still have the capability to do so. I want to teach the new generation about what I’ve learnt in this life. I want to love. I want to give. I want to teach. I want to share. I want to laugh. I want to cry.

You see, ultimately, at old age, a lot of things don’t matter.
Perhaps, those things never matter at all.
Am I able to live now in that future? Should I change the way I set goals and dreams?
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Dr V said…
Praying that your Grandma gets well and that the love of God and the gospel of Jesus is made known to her if she is not already a believer.
Mon Nov 08, 11:13:00 AM 2010
Ling said…
Ya, amen to that. :)
Mon Nov 08, 12:07:00 PM 2010
Unknown said…
Hi Vinod and Ling! Amen. She is not a believer. She has been to church before though.

Hope you two are doing well. And Isaiah too :)
Mon Nov 08, 01:08:00 PM 2010
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