Cheese & _______

You know, I'd almost drank Bleach the other day, thinking that I was holding a bottle of yoghurt drink.  My eyes was definitely not focusing on my fingers. I guess I was looking somewhere .......yes, at the ceiling and there's nothing interesting on the ceiling. Is this some sort of attention disorder or maybe this is one of the INFP thing - heavy daydreamers? You know, I'd find myself having more and more troubles writing long post or even doing something which requires great focus and long hours. Is this "instant noodle" world making me the way I am right now? It's easier to click a like and share a post on Twitter, FB or Tumblr then to write lengthy stuff on blogspot. That is why Instagram is so popular. A picture worth a thousand words, eh? I hope that this world won't turn me into " yet another annoying millennial posting pictures of food " type of citizens. I want to do more. I want to write meanings. I want to create...

"There is always free cheese, in a mouse trap" That's how I've been living. Anti-trust. Careful. Alert. Non-risk. Never jump in. Pessimistic. It's not that I don't trust, I just need to verify. Which means, I need facts to trust. I need to see proof in front of my eyes. If it is something I can't see, I need to feel it. Is that part of an INFP behaviour? Or perhaps it's not wrong to be that way but I would never find out the great opportunity that lies behind the "trust" I should make.

One of those enlightening coffee talk with Ze. Some of his wise words. Ze :  When we find the courage to grab life by the horns , we're in it too deep. We need to take control of our lives Ze :  But then, we do get to choose our ideals . Our ideals can change. If we let it. Ze :  Psychology is not for the fainthearted. Ze :    Dealing with the mentally unstable, insane, volatile, and ill... it takes incredible strength , mentally, you have to be like... 300 Spartans. Just be THAT strong. Ze :  The emotions... once it grabs a lot of your attention.... it doesn't let loose easily . I practice emotional control. Control the chemical equilibrium in your brain. Ze :  In real life, you have to learn to be tough because reality.. is well... real. You don't have to give up idealism entirely. Only the portions that conflict directly with reality. You can keep the ideals that give you a survival advantage. So...