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RESOLUTIONS PROGRESS

So, my 2011 New Year Resolutions
I shall wake up every morning, look into the mirror and tell myself, “I’m hot, baybeh. Oooh I’m like so gorgeous and I’m loved”
I shall eat 730 times of proper and nourishing meals per year. That is two meals per day. Let’s start small.
I shall produce any form of artistic creation at least once a month.
I shall finish reading one of the lengthy mind-numbing chapters in the Old Testament.
I shall not drive like a tortoise. No, wait. I shall not daydream while driving.
I shall tidy up my room as if my mom will do a random spot check.
I shall exercise. No, wait. Haven’t we been here before? Okay, I shall exercise once every 4 months. Now that sounds better.
I shall learn and speak foreign language.
I shall watch a movie weekly. Repeated movies permitted.
I shall smile, laugh, love and not take life too seriously.

Progress:
Although it has evolved into something else, it's a good thing. Start your day right - is the key.
I think I have eaten more than 2 meals per day 70% of the past half a year. Not bad.
I am lazy and no motivation, no inspiration. Wallpaper design is the best I can do. Writings too.
Only a few chapters left for Jeremiah.
Seriously, driving is not really an issue.
My room is definitely more organized and tidy.
Once every 4 months? Dang it. It's the 7th month. I think I've exercised once or twice.
Fail.
Not every week. A lil tough.

Tough one. I think I've turned into a sour plum and a little delusional.
But, I am learning more about life.
It's like, the more you know, the more you know what you didn't know, so you know there's so many other things you don't know and they tell you that life is simple, do whatever you love.

So you decide to just follow whatever you want cos you only have one life to experience and make mistake. Then after that, you realized life isn't really about that because chances are you don't die tomorrow and you live to suffer the consequences of your hasty actions for a long time. Then you learn. Then you get tired of learning. Because you won't know anything.

Then life is simple again. And then you are running in circles. But it's okay, because one day you realize, you are not running in the same circles anymore. It's a different circle and you see different colors along the way.

The best part is, you get to pick up and keep the stuff you found in your way, in the circles.

Sometimes you question countless times, no reconciliation, why the heck I'm dragged into this place and this situation of misery, then you look at what you've picked up along the way, you think that it is worth living. The stuff you've picked up are the valuable people, the valuable friends, the person whom you just have to love and care, the person who accept your good and bad. The person who believes in individualism.

Thanks for reading my crap.

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